I'm here in Wuhan!

HELLO EVERYONE! I'M HERE!

Flight was delayed, and we arrived two hours later than schedule.

I must say, when we were on the bus journey from the airport to hostel (about 1 hour) the night view of Wuhan City is wow. Because the road and cars lights here are dim, not much of street lights too, so the facade lights of shopping malls and attractions were brightening up the city with colourful lights. The most breathtaking was the reflected scenery on the lake at night. It was pretty, like diamonds sparkling on the dark waters.

Shopping malls are HUGE, like twice the size of Vivocity. And, good thing is I've found shops very good bargains, very good bargains. Everything that I saw in Sing, they have it here. I have already bought a tote bag which I fell in love at first sight when I saw it in Sing, but was selling for S$35, I got it for S$10 here!

Food here is oily and salty, they sell noodles for $2RMB and portion is twice the amount of the bar chor mee you get at your kopitiam. Macdonalds here, oh my I cannot wait to try. The Mcpork! Edy tried it and said it was gooood, and the mango pie too, and and the bluberry sundae. We missed each other at the mall yesterday night, didn't know that we were actually under the same roof. I had Ajisen ramen for dinner last night, very good. I think Angty will really like this place alot because they have very good soup base. And again, it was 1/3 the price of what they have in Sing.

Pam is always very fast is uploading pictures, reminds me very much of Angty. So, click here to see all the photos and also read on how we are doing here! I will still update, but depending on my load of other work (includes housework, eating, and of course, shopping)

Les amis dure pour toujours

You know how this whole thing puzzles me? I have no idea where is the situation heading to, and know that I shouldn't care less because I'm making my way to the exit.

But part of me wants to keep it, not wishing that it will want to keep me as well, but just to have that lesson with me. Until now, I can't figure out what have I actually learnt. When I came across this, I felt it related to me somehow.

Never kiss a friend. If you have deeper feelings, never reveal them. You will lose that friend forever.

S is just another regret. It's a pity that we've started out as friends, became best friends, went into something deeper. And now we've end up with nothing. It was a big mistake to even get started three years ago, we should have just stayed the way we were. It was that feeling of guilt and people's opinion that got to this today.

I've made the last phone call almost two months ago, I've wrote and sent the last letter almost two months ago. I've done enough to make the first move to be friends but there's was no return. It seems like S preferred for it to be this way, I see no reason why I should force it upon ourselves either.

I'm happy the way I am now, but it would've been better if we're still on good terms, not the oh-my-god-should-I-say-hi-if-I-see-him, or will-he-run-off-if-he-sees-me kind of situation. It bothers me.

Scandal Makers

It's been some time since I've watched anything I really enjoy, I never squeeled or laughed at the big screen for so such a long time. This is one show that you have to catch, either in the theatres or on DVD, you just cannot miss it. Until now I still cannot get over the quirky-ness of this movie. The ending and climax is predictable though. But the cute-ness and wonderful acting made it up.

Another Korean classic comedy. Go watch it and have a good time laughing.

There's somerthing wrong with Esther

The movie was great. Esther is an adopted orphan who is ever so polite, well-mannered. She impresses everyone she meets, such a lovely girl. But she freaks out and screams to burst your eardrums whenever someone attempts to remove her collar ribbon.

I could have been more engrossed in the show if not for fighting the urge to go to the loo. The show was so captivating that my whispers were not heard. Stupid Ulyanto.

For the first time

It's O-V-E-R O-V-E-R O-V-E-R. I was keeping all the joy and urge to scream for the whole evening. Have to be considerate and watch my mouth because my two best friends are still in the midst of exams. Hehe.

Dinner with Shona, Ang and Mike. We went to Pasta Inc just behind Ang's house. And am I glad it is situated so near her place, so convenient.


It's a small place to be called a restaurant, seats are very limited, and that's why I didn't opt for this place for dinner with the clique. They were playing classic old Italian music. Quiet, peaceful, you don't even feel like you're in Jalan Besar.

Ordered Spaghetti Pescatore Al Nero Di Seppia (Squid ink pasta) $16.90, after reading the reviews and decided to be adventurous also. It was my first time trying a squid ink pasta and please, do not judge the book by it's cover. The plate of everything black did not look very appetizing in the beginning. The first bite was indescribable. It was just wonderful! They really have some good squid ink sauce and the spaghetti was chewy tangy, perfect. Shona's angel hair crayfish pasta was good too, it's like all the tomato-based flavour was absorbed in. It was good even eating the noodles on it's own. Pasta was sooo good, I can have another serving! (You have to be careful while eating the squid ink pasta, three of us had greyish-pirate-lips while talking and eating)

Pasta Inc. is a gem admist Jalan Besar with the great local food around. It is a good place to go back to and their pastas are surely worth the price. It tasted like it could be much more expensive!

Fabulous dinner, fabulous. Is this how real italian food tastes like? Instead of the plain unappetizing ones at other pasta places? Then I want to go to Italy please.

Buona notte!

Scissors paper stone

I always like to read Ikea catalogue even though I'm not buying an furniture, I just enjoy seeing how everything is so pretty in there. And then imagine about how my future house would be like, or rather, how I want it to be. This is every young woman's day dream isn't it?

I'm almost done with exams! Almost! Tomorrow will be the last paper and I'll have some more time before I take off.

1)After paper tomorrow, going to have Pasta Inc. with Tingtong and Neh-neh. (Another thing from the to-do list, done)

We were there yesterday, but it was closed! Swee Choon was too! But we discovered a place seeling good Yong Tau Foo.

2) I finally got to see Neh neh after such a long time, I've missed her so much. I miss both of them already, please let tomorrow come faster.

3) I was deciding to buy a camera bag for the trip, and Weiyang asked me to save money for the trip and suggested that I borrowed his. I was so happy that he agreed to lend it, he's been so kind and helpful to Pam and me.

4) I'm excited about dinner with the clique, I haven't seen everyone sat down at a table having dinner together for a long time (I missed Meiqi's birthday) I miss all of them, and it will only get stronger.

5) I'm excited to go watch Orphan too! Only if my best friends stop teasing me about it.

CWT is jamming up my head, too much sediments, I need to undergo pretreatment count how many baffles are there inside, flocculation and coagulation, and finally filtration. And calculate what is the level of hardness in the brains.

Omg omg omg. Joy just texted me saying she think Freddy is near her having breakfast. I think I've just missed my last chance.

Ceraunophobia

It's pouring outside, with claps of horrifying thunder. And, I'm home alone. I have to overcome this.

I feel like some kid covering my ears and shut my eyes very tightly when I see that flash of light. I would fit my fingers as deep as I could into my ear canal to block out all the sound. It felt as if my stomach dropped and heart skipped a beat. And the house looks especially sinister when I'm alone. I feel like a coward sitting in bed trying to cover myself with everything possible until the rain/thunder stops. Imagine doing a presentation halfway when I'm talking and suddenly stop to crouch and cover my ears when thunder strikes. I would become a laughing stock. I'm turning 18, it's time I overcome this fear.

Mommy is always nice enough to give me a call whenever there is a thunderstorm, she knows my utter fear for it. She would wake up in the middle of the night to check on me when it's raining. I would be awake crouching in a fetal position, hoping that the thunder would go away. It all begun with such a bad experience, sigh. Thinking back, it was quite hilarious too. But it sends chills down my spine.

I know that dogs are afraid of thunder too, I hope Candyce is just like me. If she's braver, I'm a fail. :(

The bad and the good

Bad news, I've been having diarrhoea recently, many many times. Last night was the worse, I felt worse than a slug. It was really dehydrating me. I had to bring in my phone to the toilet and entertain myself while camping inside.

It's still processing out of my system nowww.

I tweeted "Run to the loo run run run. How I wish I can do Laplace as fast as how the diarrhoea is coming." Think I'm so funny hahahaha.



Good news, IM.GOING.TO.THE.SHOW! My aunt got tickets and offered to bring me along this coming Saturday. I cannot wait! Soo excited soo excited!

Tomorrow meeting my aunts and Cousin Beanbean for lunchie somewhere, it's going to be fun anyway it's always fun with them.

Thursday Thursday Saturday Saturday :) :) :)

I have to go do enough homework to make up for the time I'm going to spend not-studying. Monday is Maths Paper. Byeee.

The Crab Flower Club

A Toy Factory Production

Set in a respectable household in the Qing Dynasty, five daughters come forth on the eve of their father's 60th birthday to prepare the most delicately complex feast of crabs for their patriarch, as well as the setting up of an all-women poetry club.

As each of them conjures up their inner recipe, the 5 ladies assemble their intelligence, talents and secrets nakedly on the table. The Crab Flower Club is a delicious examination on the excitingly calligraphic world of sensitivity and simmering feelings. They become audience to their multi-faceted universe of morality, conspiracy and philosophy.

Due to overwhelming response, The Crab Flower Club is back from Aug 20 to 29 at Singapore’s Drama Centre. It was first staged there from June 3 to 5.

This musical stars Nell Ng, Emma Yong, Karen Tan, Yeo Yann Yann and Ang Ru-Chen.


I cannot believe that they're restaging this again, I felt lucky, but have no companion, and no cashzxz to go. No point feel that happy it's as if I'm going blahhhhh. I'm just happy to hear about it, I think it's going to be really good. Should add this onto my To-do List, watch another play before leaving. Maybe I shall spend money on the ticket after all.

Half done half to go

I'm done with half of the papers! 3 out of 6 done woohoo!

11) Find out if the universities are near to each other (We could meet Edy and Erwin halfway!)
Tick. I went to do my research and we are 20 minutes car ride away from each other very neaarrr!

Now the next thing to do, 10) Google ‘Fun places in Wuhan’ and plan late Friday nights out.

We cannot be back in campus later than 11pm though, we'll be locked out and force to sleep on the streets during the cold autum night. I've already gotten an idea already, try watching a movie at the Cheena theatres! That will be so exciting! Edy damn excited also we spent damn long hours talking about plans last night and I only slept at 1am. Lol.

I cannot wait to goooo! (Now I just have to make Pam as excited like me)

I'm preparing to go Liang Court, to meet Tingtong Ang Fighter Chen and Jojo Ng. Neh-neh Tan is down with H1N1, resting at home and fighting all that bad bacteria.

And we're going to have my favourite ramen! It's a little overpriced but it's totally worth it! Omg, I'm like drooling already. I cannot wait to fly there. Marutama Ramen. I hope I can load up a picture of that bowl of hot delicious savoury thin noodles slurping it up with that mouth-watering clear flavourful stock, and that hard boiled egg with the yolk still runny inside. Hmmm..

Have wings we fly

A group of young Americans go to France, for different personal reasons, and volunteer to fight in the French Air Service, L'Aéronautique militaire, during World War I prior to America's entrance into the war. During their training, the film mainly deals with the struggles each pilot has with the demanding flying; later, the focus shifts to the aerial dogfights that dominate the front line missions. Themes of camaraderie, racial prejudice, revenge and love are also explored.

Channel 5 tonight at 6.30pm. I know I'll like it!

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You know, every year during National Day, I would keep an eye out for people who hung their flag upside down or the cresent moon and stars on the wrong side. Everyone's improving!

And I only saw one this year when I was on the highway. I immediately laughed out loud, it's for real the this resident had the flag wrong. Jalan Rajah BLK 101. Ooops! XXX

HAPPY 44th NATIONAL DAY!

I got this mail from Weiyang

"Seen your to do list on your blog.. Seems you are all pumped up for the trip, I know you have heard it from me a thousand times BUT YOU ARE SO GONNA ENJOY YOURSELF. I hope this helps

Skype with Skype Credits, its 10USD but its worth it, you can call home and it is dirt cheap, 2 cents per minute.
Stocks of medicine, perhaps you can arrange with Pamela with that. Charcoal Pill is a must.
Extra Money if you plan on Shopping, Female stuff there are cheap and rather alright.
The place is also swarm with original Adidas and Nike products
An umbrella, the rain there is terrible, it can rain an entire day, with winds that will simply destroy your cute bangs.
Universal Travel Adapter, 2 will be good.
Horlicks, Milo and some breakfast drinks. The super market does not have all that.
There is a water container there, with hot and cold water available, its only 8RMB for refill, and it is alot of water. So yup hope that answer Pamela's question.
Stocks of Movies stored in your hard disk for you to pass your time at night.
Toothpaste and such you can get from there, but it is best to bring it there as the 1st night is gonna be quite rushing and you will only do your shopping the next day.
Save up on plastic bags there, as the supermarket do not give it to you and you would have to buy it, some do not even allow you to buy it.
Sunnies, to protect your eyes from the harmful UV rays and to look cool.."

It was absolutely sweet and nice of you dude. Thank you very much!
PS, Pam are you reading this?! Now reading all that makes me even more excited! (Don't whine!)

TADAA!

Before leaving for Cheena, Wuhan.

1) Get over and done with exams, dreadful exams
2) And do well for the papers (last term’s results was like hell)
3) Do the music video with Filzah as promised to relieve exam stress
4) Need to pack and get necessary things, and squeeze them all into one luggage
5) Sort out clothes to be brought there
6) Borrow one or two coats from my aunt
7) Decide if I should bring my softtoy dog over
8) Finish up my Breaking Dawn book
9) Stop whining that I only have 5 days in between left in Sing after exams, before leaving
10) Google ‘Fun places in Wuhan’ and plan late Friday nights out
11) Find out if the universities are near to each other (We could meet Edy and Erwin halfway!)
12) Get all the jazz and bossa-nova songs I keep listening to on Youtube
13) Watch Public Enemies and not drool over Johnny Depp
14) Go do photography shoots for my dear friends just for fun
15) Have a picnic with them, soon, soon, soon
16) Ask (no, demand) my tumbler drawing from Casper
17) Go have great Japanese makan with Mom and my aunts
18) Have Char Kway Teow at least once before I leave, if not I would cry missing it
19) Go step into ION at least once though I wouldn’t need to buy anything from there
20) Go shopping in Muji, and not neglect my Muji card since it’s here
21) Spend as much time as possible with Family, and freaking awesome friends
22) Be independent like a big girl going overseas to study, I have grown up!
23) Freddy
24) Convince Pam and myself we will not be staying with Tantan, and have the apartment all to only the both of us
25) Convince Pam there’s no need to buy a kettle, and/or a weighing machine
26) Pray that pillows in Cheena apartment are non-stinky
27) Got to finally make use of my chance in the airport to do duty-free shopping
28) Make gifts for freaking awesome friends to let them think of me every day when I’m gone
29) Treasure hunt and hope to find a ‘Click’ remote control to be able to stop, fast forward, and rewind time
30) Convince Dad I need a motorcycle for schooling, and it will be safe for me on the road
31) Remember how to sing all the I-love-Singapore songs because Pam wouldn’t want to hear Majulah Singapura all the time if I miss home
32) I think I should just borrow a bigger luggage from my aunt to be able to squeeze everything in
33) Fred Freddy Fred
34) Fix and master how to use Skype so that I can webcam and call everyone!
35) Demand that all classmates make in to send Pam and I off at the airport, no matter how early the flight
36) Do.not.cry.when.I.am.leaving. I look super ugly when I cry.
37) Organise things that I have to carry on hand. My laptop, my camera. I’m going to have busy hands
38) Oh yes, have Italiano at Pasta Inc. with Neh-neh Tan, Tingtong Ang, and Fighter Chen
39) Go singing with them since Tingtong Ang has been talking about it
40) Well, I must have enough $$$ to do all the above that needs it :(
41) Think of how Pam and I are going to do laundry at Cheena
42) I think I want to be daring and may be getting a haircut in Cheena. Hey! Let’s be adventurous man!
43) Encourage Neh-neh Tan to have a to-do list since she’s leaving only a few days after me
44) Stop thinking about wanting to get a goldfish as a pet, it will probably die when I’m not around
45) Smile at Freddy
46) Don’t step onto anyone else’s foot again
47) Casper’s going to be back first before I leave, good timing! Everyone’s flying around
48) Decide how many pair of shoes I am going to bring over
49) I should trust local products there, maybe buy everything there. If not my luggage is going to be overloaded
50) Ensure Pam she wouldn’t go deaf after my constant singing and screaming-for-nothing she’s going to endure
51) Neh-neh and I have to, HAVE TO! go get Ang’s present before I fly off, seriously.

To-Do List

I've got it done up! I've got this sitting in the documents folder for almost a week already. Still filling in more though.

51 things to do before leaving for Cheena, Wuhan. (So far)

Updating more updating more and maybe cancelling some in time to come. I know this has nothing to do with something "To-Do" but it's linked anyway!

1) I think I just missed Fred on the bus, I couldn’t see if it was really him, and there were so many people! Arghh! *^&%#@!*#@

Breeze after storm

Cool it, I've got to learn to cool it.
Can't believe that I let those get into my head and spoiled the rest of my day.

Time is passing real fast huh? It's Wednesday! Oh my god, next week is the last week of school. Yea nothing great exams are after that.

And I'm flying off like almost immediately after the papers.

Ok I'm not going to divluge any details here or say anything about the dates, if not people will think that I'm up to something or trying to pass a message or whatsoever. I think I have to be careful with what I say or do, to stop people from speculating me that I'VE GOTTEN OVER IT. Stupid irritating immature disrespectful shallow unthoughtful people!

COOL IT, I'VE GOT TO LEARN TO COOL IT.

Pheeeewwwww. Whenever I got so upset over this, I was desperately looking for that someone around, and puts a smile on my face. Fred. I haven't seen Freddy for long.

This is prettaye, such a great idea.

O.K. I'm going to type my To-Do List now, almost done!

ARGH TO HELL WITH YOU!

WHEN I SAY I'M OVER IT, I FREAKING MEAN THAT I'M OVER IT. STOP DOUBTING ME!

People want me to move on, and when I happily tell them that I have done it, it was like "Yea right" It's contradicting. I thought you all want me to move on, and should be happy for me instead. WHY SHOULD I LIE THAT I'M GOOD AGAIN? YOU THINK I WOULD PRETEND TO BE HAPPY AND THEN GO STAB HIM OR DO OTHER FUNNY THINGS BEHIND HIS BACK?

I HAVE A LIFE PLEASE, WHY IS IT DIFFICULT TO BELIEVE THAT I'VE DONE IT?

With pen and paper

I wrote a letter to S just this week. And when I was writing, I truly felt that we could really be friends. I felt I understood what he meant when he said he wanted to be friends, and not that we have to stop talking to each other. And I felt okay, good. She's probably coming back soon or maybe she's back already, and I kind of feel happy for him that he will see her again. I'm not a psycho. I'm not trying to be all I-have-compassion-I-forgive-you. It seems weird that it's as if I've gotten over this so fast, but it's a good thing, right? I mean, I finally figured out that we could be friends after all. But if he has changed his mind about it, I won't force this.

I'm impressed with myself! Gone are the times feeling lost, all those months, March April May June July. I'm not going to let my 2009 be a bad year, going to make it even better. Hello August! Nice to meet you!

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I was dragged up early this morning for one of those touring-exploring Sunday trips again. We haven't done this for a long time. It felt good to be down on Sembawang Road. There was no tall buildings. Just zooming pass green fields, green fields, and more green fields with Dandelions and Mimosa. The fresh morning breeze was refreshing.

I'll miss going out on Sunday trips.

My fat purple veggie

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THIS. This is my current wallpaper for my desktop. This adorable fat purple thing, in case if you don't know, it's a Brinjal/Eggplant. I love you Aubergine! You sound really cute.

I'm going to take away my Twitter application in FB, too irritating. It is a great invention, both, but I prefer tweeting more. Ok I don't want to continue, this is getting boring. Bottom line, so that means I will be less active in FB, but who cares luh.

Pam's head is on the table again, once again. Joy is nodding away, watching Mika in his underpants dancing in his bedroom. Ok I'm going to peer over to her side. Bye.

Change of my pillar of strength

I had a really good time talking to Jojo the other night. It's good that I have someone to relate to. I felt better, best of all, after that talk because most of the time to others, I'm just telling and describing to them how I feel. But with her, she knows what I'm feeling because we are in the same situation. And we'd realise we feel the same way about it, and we're not alone.

"Think of your accomplishments, how long has it been since you cried. the rush of blood to your ears was not as strong as before. We've changed from tears to taking in of deep breaths when we see anything that reminds us of them. We're able to smile when we see a note written by him, or a gift from him, instead of crying our eyes swollen."

"New experience with new people brings new memories. You should still go to the places you both went to, go with our friends, do the things you both used to do, eat the same food you both used to eat. Have new memories of the place, let it replace the old one."

It will be much easier now when we have each other. We're no more tattered and torn, we are no more crying. We are now going through a whole new experience without them in our lives.

It's good really, it's all good, from the bottom of my heart. I feel happy whenever someone comes up to me telling me that I'm so strong. Thinking back, I would have it easier if I've let my heart die earlier, it was the closure that I needed. But now it doesn't matter anymore, I still moved on in the end.

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Clean water technology lecture is boring me. Pam's head is already down on the table, luckily I have my laptop with me, if not mine would be on the table as well.

Saw this on Casper's tweet. It's good isn't it? Very creative I would say.

Gave more recieved much less

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"Burn the book of love you've been using these past few years. Don't think of the incineration as censorship. Think of it as liberating yourself from the tyranny of fables that have programmed you to accept less love than you deserve, and give less love than you have to give. And when you're done with the burning, go in search of the brand new book of love.Better yet, write that holy text yourself. A good title might be
"Love doesn't conquer all, but 60 percent isn't bad""

- IS Mag, 24 July 2009

I don't usually believe or even read horoscopes, but I was reading the magazine at Coffee Nations this afternoon and read to Shona hers, I came across mine which I felt was eerily true. I feel exposed, like, hey a magazine knows about my private life and about how I really feel. It's as if it was speaking my mind.

Maybe we should all believe in horoscopes every now and then. Of course not the ones which tells you "Wearing all orange today, the love of your life will find you. Walk north, hear the winds whisper, they will tell you the answers." You will look like a pumpkin and no one would want to walk with you, not even talking about the love of your life.

The wheels go round and round

I was laughing when I saw Shona's tweets about her new driving instructor, she must have had a really bad time breathing in air of the same area with him. As she was learning, he was eating Hokkien mee in the car, and she felt insulted (maybe not as bad if he had asked, "you want some?") But he was also spitting in his food, that turned her off there and then, so no, she didn't want the noodles even if he asked. And he was swearing as much as the A's in this sentence I guess.

She's hopping mad and very eager to change a new instructor. I will hear more from her when I see her again tomorrow. We are going to the slums of Jalan Besar, to visit the two princesses of the three at Petain Road, and to have dinner at good ol' Swee Choon. I just cannot wait!

And I had a very disturbing dream about N last night, it wasn't so bad when I was dreaming, but when I woke up to think about it. I freaked out, it's so weird.

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I was going through the web for creative advertisments for psychology project and spotted some really interesting ones.

Child drug abouse. This is just a weird twist to the nursery rhyme I grew up with. Like, a child choosing to drink coffee over the choice of a Coke. Freaky, this boy must have gotten some mutant genes in him. Or wait a minute, I'm now thinking about the whole benjamin-button thing.

Some thought that came to my mind when I hum this tune now. What do people do with black sheep's wool, to make Afro wigs?

Go google creative advertisments now, find some entertainment!

Oxygen to grow

All the work is never ending. I feel like sitting by the side and just let the work pile up by itself.

I want to be like this plant, happily sitting in the bulb taking in air, sunlight and water to help me grow. But I'd be really bored though. I hope my owner will change my place everyday, so there will be new scenery everyday I can look at different things and explore with my eyes and imagination.

I would like to be a plant which can bear flowers, and maybe even fruits! So that I can give back to my owner for taking care of me. But I'd be too big for this cool light bulb pot. Hmmm.

Happy cherry cake

I just bought new red flats that I've always liked, but never know if it would suit me. But now I'm happy that I've finally gotten them! Strong independent bold romantic red. Now I can get up to dance with Filzah with my new red feet! Let's dance 'cause it's Friday! Oh, I am going to get Bangs this weekend because I feel like doing so. If I feel like it, I'll just do it. Courageous adventurous me! I've refurbished here with font colours page. This feels like a new beginning.

I'm chilling and winding down at Greenhouse. My fellow followers are here too @bombeebee @jianweichen @shnatan @kohjanice @meiqichen. And I adore the bubbly green thing sitting next to me. Green thing, I adore you so much I want to drink you dry now, stay icy cold you!

Hah. I can't believe I typed all those words just now, so.. I-will-conquer-the-world. I'm feeling cranky I just want to sing out loud that I'm good I'm fine I'm happy from the bottom of my heart.

AHHHHHHH.

Sunshine shining on me

I'm beginning to enjoy school. I'm beginning to enjoy my time with all the people here, especially my class boys who are always childish, but happy.

I never liked Wastes classes, but it is just listening and looking at how Mr. Goh behaves, it amuses me so much that I began to draw outlines of him to entertain myself.

I should have eaten Western food just now. Daxino was indirectly tempting me with the plate of chicken and golden fries, couldn't help it but picked on his food. I need to satisfy my food cravings which are coming back, means I'm normal again.

I always feel inspired after reading Filzah's posts, gives me that sense of hope freedom and light. Love you babe.

More than a tweet

I got more to type now, more than 140 words so I'm going to do it here instead of using Twitter. But I wonder if a single soul reads this. Never mind, at least it's said here.

I'm on the roll again. I miss you @bombeebee @shnatan @meiqichen how you would tell me in my face it's over and not stare into blank space again. How you all will snap me out of my thoughts when I think too much.

I thought I had stop crying, but now I feel more sorrow-ful that what it was before. Sigh I disappoint myself again.

The way you want to make it easier,

Dumb. If I speak all those foul words unpleasant to the ear, can S blame me?

No, he can't, can he? He owes it to me but I would never take that for granted even if it's my chance to get back at him or like some say, revenge. I think it's rather dumb. And certainly I am not dumb (I would say) to believe in all his lies, but for the sake that he doesn't want to let me know the truth I understand it's because he doesn't want to make this whole thing even more hurtful for me, but again I'm not dumb, I know those things going on. Cliche, I am a woman, I have instincts.

It's weird that I have to pretend that I don't know a single thing in front of him. I have to pretend I am stupid, pretend that I believe. Sometimes I would think slightly off point, and think I may try to REALLY believe in him. It's good I came back on track. I cannot keep pretending I will go nuts. Maybe deluding makes your life better but no, no no it's not going to do me any good I know. He knows it cannot happen, try, go on try your luck, he will crumble the life of those around him, immature unthoughtful idiot. Poor insight.

I felt digusted with myself when I was in denial, I know the truth but avoided it. Maybe after a year or two, maybe. But no, not now, never. He may not know how much hate and sorrow he introduced to me, the years which were supposed to be the happiest in my life. Looks like it's not but like what they say, 'you will emerge stronger'.

Well, I hope S does too.

What a spy,

I don't want to battle with rotten fruit. It will dirty my hands so you can have it all you want. And oh, be careful of the viruses, you will never know.

I think i want to make this a private page, prevent prying eyes from reading about my life. Read all you want for now bitch, there will be no other time again.

I'd love if it's Christmas

It's been raining alot these few days, it's like Christmas season.
How I wish it's the Christmas season now. I've always loved Christmas season, do you know why?

The light

I know that I'm still hoping, but it will wear off after that, slowly, but it will. I've learnt the lesson that is really disheartening to anticipate something that will less likely turn out your way, very little chances. Stop hoping for a miracle to happen fool, if he's sure that he wants to come back he would have already done so, he would have noticed you were missing yesterday he would have called yesterday. But there was nothing. Stop believing in his excuses, it shows that you just don't mean as much to him as his sleep. Stop hoping for a miracle to happen fool.

I think I'm doing well, few fits of crying but I will be good, better after that. I miss S.
I have to get over tomorrow no crying, control it well you fool.

Step out

I was feeling so confused but now I think that I'm doing the right thing. I cannot be stuck in this anymore, cannot allow myself to continue when I know that in the end I will be seriously hurt.

Why am I still not over S? What are the things that made me go back to him again and again, I can't think of much. Childish procrastinating insensitive irresponsible and mostly, he doesn't make me feel that I am important to him.

There are so many negative things that I can talk about, but why is it that I keep coming back to the same person?

He still likes her, and cannot forget about it. S said he needs the time and will get over her, but he still say things online and keep things there that reminds himself about their whole affair. With all that, how is forgetting and getting over, possible? I cannot pretend I didn't see.

I feel so cheap and avaliable to be there for him when I know that he still has feelings for her, like how I delude myself that he only needs time. But deep down I know myself if he really treasure what we had, he would have done this fast and get it over and done with. I just kept running away from this truth.

He did made it clear that we would take things slowly, if we could work out again. But it cannot happen when the mess is still here. He needs to clear things up, with her, with me. Make it a clean cut no strings attached.

Now, I'm taking a step out myself I'm not going to wait for him to take action, because he never will, will he? I told S over the phone I was moving on, and didn't want to hear from him at all. He did want to remain contact but it will be difficult for me, so I refused. He didn't stop me at all, he didn't say anything to keep me.

The most disturbing thing is that he said if I want to move on, it's my matter, when he wants to get back to me he can do it anytime he wants.

Was that it? So he really did treat me like a toy, he was playing with my feelings when he said he will try to forget about her. Words with no actions I've been through so much of that, too much of that. Make your own decision Koh Ping En, know what is best for yourself don't live to regret anymore further.

TTTTT

I'm officially on Twitter after leaving the registration page on hold for so long.
I think it's fun really. Short and sweet.

Caspero thought of the username for me and I think it's really cool.
Whackabobs sounds really violent, and no, definently not bobalicious. Hah.

I know nobody reads -beyondpassion now, it's okay I will just leave it here to pour out my woes!

@bobgobs, tweet!

Jim Jones

I learnt about Peoples Temple and Reverend Jones incident during Psychology today. Very interesting but eerie at the same time, I didn't know such things happened.

Scary.
Go google it.

Daddy bought back ba chor mee from Lavender. Hmm.

I've gotten my last book. Thanks for the trip, I'm trying very hard not to ask all those questions, understand how I feel.

I'm trying to believe again.

Unbelievable,

The lost look in your eyes helpless and yet afraid to make everything better. You looked at me like a piece of glass falling thinking if you should reach out your hand to save me.

I closed my eyes and looked down. You took a long time to reach out your hand to stop my streaming tears. I didn't dare to take another step forward to wrap my arms around you I didn't want to make things even more difficult I didn't want you to be confused what you should do I don't want to cross the line.

I think I understand now, you're really one unbelieveable person.

The flavour of bland,

I realise that I favour different versions of my favourite foods or things now. And that makes me feel old.

I used to like sweet packet juices, now I find freshly squeezed juices taste better. I liked those tubed egg tofu you get for steamboats, but now I prefer plain white tofu. I used to grab white chocolates whenever I see them in the supermarket, and now I enjoy dark chocolates more. I would pick flavoured milk(strawberry chocolate you name it!) if I have the choice, now I like the good ol' un-flavoured milk. I used to like humour tees and printed tshirts, now I would never wear them again. I used to hate almond pudding and mango would be my favourite, now its the opposite.

I prefer more tasteless things now. Bland simple orginal.

I did this analysis some time ago,

Young kids are like juices, sweet innocent the world is like the playground. Teens go for carbonated drinks shows the spur of energy that they have, adventurous loud. Young adults need coffee to keep them going on working late nights to complete their jobs. Middle age men and woman prefers the good original plain water because they have tasted much. Old grandfathers and grandmothers are like tea, and they prefer tea, like, enjoying old age and reflecting about their lives. There's this dry sweetness in the aftertaste of tea.

And I've realised they get from sweet, eventually to bitter. From the strong to the bland.
It is like life too is it?

Qwerty Phones,

Nokia E71 and E63. Both are oh-so-lovely.

A lot of people have been telling me advantages and disadvantages for these two.

Which one should I get my hands on?

Kris Allen

Kris Allen won! Oh I am still recovering from shock and joy. I am so glad!
You are a white horse now, not a dark horse.

Walk,

I've been to Bontanic Gardens thrice within one week. Photography Assignment.

Time in space,

I had a great time at Coffee Nations yesterday. It was nice to take my mind of things just for that few hours. How I wish time could stand still.

It's getting tiring, everything has been dragging for too long time. I want to get out of this myself since Shaun isn't helping me to.

I would want to head to CN with them again, and probably I would really need to be there this week to spend time with my best buds and their love. Answers are coming soon I think.

"You say you gotta go and find yourself You say that you're becoming someone else"

Bread and Cheese,

Lecture is soooo boring.

I want to today to fly pass. School is making me feel tired. Can't wait for next week to pass I want to get my questions answers. I'm stuck between what I want, and what is right for me.

I think I'm turning heads again, great. Bread and cheese, with Milo is comforting.

School's in!

Mr Sathan says only lunatics bathe in the middle of the night at 2am.
Mr Ng always say, "Hey folks"
Mr Goh mumbles to himself during class.
Ms Mok's shopping mall lectures are real bore.
Mrs Chia has a weird accent and weird dress sense, but she's a nice lady.
Mrs Lee likes boys.

Grandmother's silent words,

I spent my afternoon at Grandmother's a few days ago, I feel much better being around her.

She is one amazing woman. I can sit still for the whole day listening to her talk about the family history. How she brought up ten children with the family so poor that she took up multiple jobs and worked day and night. How she survived through the discrimination others had on her family and proved everyone wrong.

I always ask about the fire that burnt down the previous house at River Valley. How everyone got out unscathed. How everything took a better turn after that. How did everyone feel that they are really lucky to be living and to have each other in their lives.

Everytime, everytime all these events are awakening to me. It makes me realise time and time again, that I have a family so strong who supports me silently behind and never expects anything in return. Grandmother made me feel that it's such a minor matter, what's going on between Shaun and I, and I'm wasting time worrying about all that.

I was sitting at dinner, listening to how my grandparents bicker. How my grandfather would call her "Old Woman" in Hokkien. How my grandmother complain to me things that he do to irritate her. How she would roll her eyes saying, "60 years and you still have that bad habit." How grandfather would make that 'yakking' motion with his hand while she is complaining away, and make me laugh.

They stuck to each other's side against all odds to make the family stay together. To care for and nuture their children, teaching them life values which my uncles and aunts I have and love, possess.

I admire the love they share, and thankful that I was part of it. I love my grandmother, and the beautiful words she brought across to me that afternoon without the need of a voice.

I have to put my heart down. I have to move on. I need closure.

The other side you didn't know,

I am posting what I'm going through for the ones I love, and the people who care for me, to know.

I'm not doing this hoping that Shaun would read because that is nearly impossible. He never remembers what this blog address is, and was never interested to read about what I have to say online. He did tell me once, "There is no need for me to read it all there when I know them better from you."

I have thought that it was a bad thing, he never knows how I feel after quarrels. He never knows that actually I was not really angry over whatever he did, I was just being mad for the sake of doing so. He never knows how much I miss him when we don't see each other for days/weeks, when I say "It's okay, I know you have work to do." If he reads, all those things would be easily understood and he would know what I want, and how I feel. Everything would have been easier isn't it?

Now, there's no need for me to pose an emotion or a feeling just because I'm afraid that he will be reading. It is a good thing after all.

I know I'm much at fault too.

There was an mis-interpretation. I know Shaun was really upset over the text I sent him when I was in Vietnam, not appreciating what he has gone through pains to do.

So I should blame myself for doing that and caused what is happening now? No. I know it's a different thing all together.

I'm dropping the pieces slowly so I'll be ready to give up when the truth gets coming. It sounds as if I have no faith in him or our r/s. The opposite party is being wishy-washy, it won't do me good clinging on. Because, it takes two to make things work.

He needs such a long time to make a decision about our relationship which I thought was strong to overcome anything. Shaun's cowardice and procrastination is hurting me.

And if this was the pain he wanted me go through, Congratulations to him.
But, I don't want him to have the last laugh.

Drinking tea,

Right, I don’t know how I should start this. I’m not sure if I’ll say what is going on with two hands down that I’m positive about it.

Things took another step deeper into complications over the weekend.

The tables are turned and the decision, I can’t do anything to assure it would be in my way. I panicked when he said he needs to sort out his feelings. It’s no longer a thing between me and Shaun. The circle has gotten bigger with an additional member of his side. Though I don’t know the exact story behind it even though I held back the tears and persuaded it to be told, but I could figure it out somehow. Imaginations can run wild, but I’m pretty happy and satisfied with what I imagined it to be.

And to think of it, what if it is judged my way? Things would be still different from the way I wanted and hoped it to be, back to the same ol’ cycle. Honestly, I would have much prefer the same cycle compared to the opposite of it, judging the circumstances now.
I’ve never heard of S talking to me like a stranger on the phone urging me to hang up every minute, repeating asking me not to pressurize him to say anything because he wouldn’t. On the other hand, he asks me not to think much about it; he would solve this on his own and let me know the answer when it ends.

Yeah. Your ex-boyfriend whom you still love tells you someone else is in the picture; you drink a cup of tea.

I felt like a disgusting woman begging to know the truth over the phone last night. I was feeling sorry for myself crying and I was lost for words. What I wanted to say was more than what I said, but I decide I shouldn’t be making me feel disgusted with myself further. The lump in my throat was huge. He wanted three weeks to think.

You will know how it will come to an end in three weeks; you make yourself a pot of tea.

I’m getting myself to be ready if the blow hits me, that someone is a person I know, a friend maybe. Who ever it will be. You go super girl. I want to know what that person did or what S did to make it seem so difficult to make a decision now when I am sure five days ago he was still the Shaun I knew.

You're going to know who the person coming in the circle is, you drink a cup of tea.

As for now, there is nothing else I can do. Feels like I have no arms. I’m a prize hanging from the tree, dangling, have no say which way the wind will make me sway. It’s either wait for someone to untie me down and treasure this prize, or to be wacked like a piñata again and again until my insides comes spilling out with sweets. Everyone would be rushing for the treats, and kick the empty piñata shell out of their way.

There is nothing you can do to save the situation now; you pour yourself a cup of tea.

And wait, for the dreaded phone call.

Times yellowed,

I got better on Thursday morning. Now I'm back from trial camp, I'm down with flu again.
Camp wasn't all jolly and fun. But I did have a good talk with the class girls, staying up a little late.

Met the clique for dinner last night at Fins before Ritz leaves for Melb on Sunday.
Fins Fish & Chips are gooood. Nice.
I always enjoy Clique's company no matter where we go, even if I'm not the one doing the talking, or being talked to at that moment.
We don't mind talking about secondary school times over and over again,
and laugh silly at the stupid things we used to do during break times and on everyone's birthdays.
I really do wish to have a complete gathering where everyone turns up but I know it's rather difficult to do so now.

I have exactly 16 days left before school reopens. Oh man :(
Make use of it make use of it make use of it.

I would run away as far as I could,

I was back in Sing on Sunday but was too lazy to post.

Camp is tomorrow, and I'm feeling really sick now.
I stayed home the whole day except for dinner out and I was feeling so weak to even make lunch for myself.

I hate being unwell and sad and lifeless. I should not even get my hopes up only to make myself disappointed.
But at least now I get the clear picture, you have not change at all. I thought, I thought you said this was the wake up call.
You will make the best out of things now, you will make everything better.
Your words are still lies and you're unrealiable.

I feel so disgusted to even talk to you.

Need a ride, a ride, a ride.

I'm seeing this all over HCMC, and I really envy how the people here travel around so easily with their motorcycles.
They must have gotten their motorcycle license so easily. This bike is so commonly seen here, I felt like I'm in Scooter Heaven.

Traffic here is still scary. Moreover it's Friday, there are even more motorcycles around!
Every bike I see on the streets, perhaps every 2 out of 5 is a Piaggio Vespa. It's different for Singapore.
I always have the urge to want to sit on it and feel how it is like to be 'riding' it. So many pretty colours, I saw a few of them which is 'special', one of it is the design of Italy's flag.
I wish to have one to myself.

They are such beautiful travel invention!

We went to roam the streets as usually just now, and bought bread from this French Bakery, and they are good! Saw another group of Ngee Ann students who just came today, and happen to live in the same hotel as us.
They are quite a few antique shops here selling really old cameras, most of them not working anymore.
We had Ice-cream at one of the French-style coffeeshops. The roads were bustling, of course, with handsome motorcycles.

Going up the others' room now. Good night! I will dream of myself riding a Vespa tonight.

Ho Chin Minh City

First day was fairly enjoyable. It's just that the weather is damn hot.

I'm not feeling very good, my nose is 'runny' and sometimes it's blocked. Food is good, I didn't like some though.
Vetnam Coffee and Spring Rolls totally made the day better.

I like the venue where the hotel is located, it's near to the Night Market,
and awesome thing is that there are many French-styled coffeeshops around.
We are now skilled in crossing roads in Ho Chi Minh City, after the frightful experience.

I'm feeling hungry, again.

The way we stand,

Was spending my afternoon with friends over at town. Hot sun, coffee at Starbucks, dinner at Rabbit, and Starbucks again.
Food at Rabbit's was good, I still have the Tom Yum heat in my throat. I will go back there again definitely.
Post-dinner at Starbucks Paragon was exciting, I was listening to Chris and Mike talk about the Thai horror film 'Coming Soon'.
I had goosebumps while listening. It kind of freaked me out.
I was walking damn slowly from the bus stop to the lift hoping to see familiar faces who will take the same lift as me.


I've made up my mind, I will bring my laptop with me on this trip, but I'm thinking of the hassle..
I'm not all hyped up and excited about the trip yet, so many things undone. I couldn't even concentrate on packing.

Had a good time today :)

Went Suntec with Mom, but was in no mood to shop at all. I have no idea why either.
I was much happier when I came back home.
Meeting girlfriends on Monday yay.

I'm left with 3 more days before I leave again, for Vietnam this time.
5.15am at the airport! Woah, I have to get up at like 3.30am :(
I think it will be a good trip, I will certainly enjoy it, programs will be over at 5.30pm everyday.
I'm thinking if I should carry my laptop with me on this trip, need entertainment.

Wheeee!

Essence of time,

12:46 I alighted from the MRT and took my own sweet time to walk to Vivocity.
13:00 No call, no message. I feel hungry.
13:05 I texted S telling him I've reached and ask where is he. (He said he will call me when he's there)
13:10 No reply. I walked pass Page One and thought, "hah, I shall go in, never been here for ages"
13:23 No reply. I was browsing Chic-lit when I saw the person standing opposite me looks alot like Xavier.
13:28 No reply. I was thinking if I should go over to say Hi, thinking he will ask, what are you doing here, and it will be weird to reply I'm being stood up for the first date after the break-up.
13:32 No reply. Okay that person is not Xavier, just very look-alike. Like his twin or something.
13:35 No reply. I decided to text my two girlfriends. "Woo hoo! I'm being stood up for an hour and still counting. Big guess is that he overslept"
13:36 No reply. I thought I will walk out of Vivocity if he's not here by 13:45.
13:40 Got a call from the-late-guy, panting and mumbling how sorry he is, and asked me to wait for him, will be there by 14:00
13:43 Text from S "Something cropped up sorry to make you wait, pls forgive. Reading any books? Are you hungry?" HA-HA. I told Shona I will probably have fainted by the time he got here.
14:00 I guessed I forgot what I was thinking at 13:36. Page One is getting colder by the minute, and I'm realllllyyyy hungry! Still not here yet.
14:08 My phone finally rings, "Where are you? I'm in Page One now."

Was tidying the room and saw some photos taken a year ago.

Tattered and torn,

I remembered Joy's post on her essay she wrote when she was in primary school.

And so I was really bored at home, I packed my room and came across a piece I wrote sometime back.
(When I was in secondary 2 I think)

Here's goes.

"Sandy rose up from her cyan clue chair and stretched herself. She was a slim, and gorgeous woman at the peak of her career. Sandy dragged her feet towards the spotless drop window facing the beautiful night view of the city. Her moist brown eyes could not help but look at the night sky full of little diamonds glittering, as if they were smiling at her. The aroma of rich coffee filled up her office room and brought an warm ambiance. Sandy brings herself to ease on the warm Monday night.

Turning back to the messy office table, she sighed as she sat back down and began packing unwillingly. After what seemed like hours, she stood up and walked to the toilet outside. It was almost twelve. The corridor of the office was eerily quiet. Each click-clack of her heels echoed in the deserted walkway until the creak of the toilet door filled the silence.

Sandy stared appreciatively at her reflection in the mirror as she washed her hands. Her hair waved gently on her shoulders and her new eye make-up highlighted her soft oval face. She could not be anymore prettier. She smiled to herself and walked out of the dead silent washroom and hurried back to her office. She thought she heard someone giggled behind her back."

I remembered getting inspiration from a short story I read or watched, cant remember.
I think this is why I hate to write descriptive essays, I feel that it's draggy.
It was my one attempt when I was in a good mood.
No more essay writing!

On one hand everything is pretty normal, on the other, I feel lost.
Oh my I'm tired.

The wife of Reilly,

Yay, passed day one without any calls or text messages. There is no difference to my day though.
My whole week was spending time with friends, I met Shona almost everyday!
I like the ambience in CoffeeNations, great for book reading.

Current book :

And finally met Christopher yesterday, the three of us talked alot huh!
I'm going to put my holiday into full use next week, not that I'm gonna start work, but I want to do something more meaningful.

Meeting the clique later for Ritz's birthday dinner, I miss them.

Weren't we able to see the signs that we missed,

Throughout this one month, S didn't do anything to salvage it. He clearly knows there's something going wrong here. There were so many obvious signs, so many chances and opportunities given, and he was not aware of it. I've been too supportive, have I? I don't want to be taken for granted, I've been keeping everything cool. I've had enough of taking initiatives, believing in his lies. Trusting that he understands.

I wondered if I did the right thing, and if I would regret this decision. Yes I think I will, but I want him to learn a lesson.

I want to be alone now.

Starting it up,

Time at grandma's was awesome. She's sucha wonderful cook. Dinner topic was the Merlion. I guess everyone is talking about it.
If you're confused, go flip the newspapers.

Anyway first week of holidays yeah (: I'm not sure of what to do yet.
I've got many exhibitions that I want to attend.
But I'm not sure if anyone is willing to accompany me to Photography galleries, I'm afraid they will be so bored.
I have to pick up my camera to start 'learning', I have to practise again.
It felt scary when I took out my neglected camera, I forgotten the theory of it all, I'm so sorry uncle.
But no worries, I will not dash the hopes you have on me! :P

Oh my, this post is boring, really. Meeting the friends on Tuesday!

Flying through time,

Yay!

7 hours away,

Did anyone of you people heard or watched the "Woman Airport Drama" on Youtube? It's so rude. People giving their brainless comments.
Tsk.

Last paper ends at 4 today, and I'm meeting Shona after that! Cannot wait!
I will miss studying at some point, I know, it's always this way.

I cannot believe holidays are just 7 hours away! What are you doing at the time 7 hours from now?

Rain tapping on her windows,

Biology paper is tomorrow, good luck to me yay. Hydraulics friday.
Best friends are finishing paper earlier than me, but it all ends this week! Woot!

Because passing blame is fun,

This is happening

It sucks I don't enjoy this at all. It's always happening, gosh! The blood rush makes my ears hot, I hate this I hate this.
I didn't expect it to turn out this way, again.

Might be heading down to Coffee Nations tmr, I want to talk to Pam and Joy about this, like now.
Pam jus went from "Single" to "It's complicated" I understand whatever you said about it the other time dear!

I want to see my best friends soon too, how I hope I can run to two places in one day and spend many time with my dearest ones.

I feel like banging my head on the wall, or something close to that.
But how am I going to put it in a way to let him understand?

Reword the first message,

Well sum up the whole of this week, I'm happy that its half way through exams!

Engineering maths is over, I have Environmental Biology and Hydraulics now. Both kind of draining the soul modules.
Monday was with my Ewt girls at Coffee Nations, studied maths near to a breakdown, I felt so helpless then.
I met and got to know Benjamin Van Caspel, this guy and his friends whom I thought were kind of rude at first, long story.
Now, emailing through facebook. Yeah, keep your thoughts at bay people!

Tuesday to Friday I spend most of my time at Starbucks Greenhouse with best friends.
We spend so much time there, facebook pictures proves it all. I love to spend time there. Coffee aroma rocks.

We were invited to this coffee presentation last night, drank so much coffee, I felt sick when I got home.
But it was a ball of fun when we were playing the games, I couldnt stop laughing. I love starbucks I love my best friends. Muackszxzx.

I am addicted to Facebook for quite alot of reasons why.

On the widest sea,

Can you imagine how happy I was when I saw this package?

I thought we had lost contact, and was hiding the sadness deep inside. I miss you very much Aki Myoi!
I was worried about what had happen when I didn't get email replies from her.


I'm going to open it later, very excited!

Under the radar,

I'm going off to starbucks greenhouse now!

The pixie who killed the moon,

Yesterday was kind of fruitful,

1) I learnt that apple crumble pizza's crumble tastes like suji cookies
2) Usher is married and has one kid alr
3) A nude pink dress can be lovely
4) Never drink milk when I have an unwell throat
5) The Cathay has quite a number of interesting shops
6) Valentines' day is very cheesy I really dont like it
7) I am gald that my girlfriends share the same thinking as me
8) Filzah looks good with her red hair highlights
9) I came across the story that I like when I was young, the pixie who killed the moon
10) I realised I really miss big gatherings with my clique when we chat over dinner
11) Food at Hooked! is very good.

It feels like I will be going to war later at Sofra, I am all set and armed.

Back of a postcard,

Happy 27 monthsary S. woohoo yeah.
See you very soon, I hope!

Going back to the corner,

School's sucking the life out of me.
Exams are in two weeks time, yeah, woohoo.

I am not celebrating Valentine's. I think its so commercialised, like cheesy and all.
So since my aunt needs help, I will be spending my v day working at Sofra, again. I dont mind.
It will be fun having them around, though I know it will be crazy on that day.

I am facebook-ing now, I just completed my maths online revision hahahahahah.
I feel happy. Four more projects to go for this week!
I cannot wait to go down to greenhouse to spend time with the girls, or to study with them during my study break.

Over the weekend we celebrated Grandma's birthday at Clarke Quay.
And let me say this, clarke quay is a bomb at night. Besides the clubs, there are flea markets!
But with things that are not of the flea market price.
I like it though, I would like to take after dinner walks there with S one evening.

Happy Birthday Grandma! I love you!

This picture is so candid, I like! Haha.

Sweet lemons,

We dined at Sofra for dinner last evening.
Headed to United Square to get Twlight, and spent sometime in greenhouse starbucks.

This weekend is going to rock.
Facebook is fun.

I can feel you all around me,

The time we spend apart will make our love grow stronger,

So sweeet, so gross at the same time heh. Im never going say that to S, wait long long! Haha.
Tomorrow is f-r-i-d-a-y! and its 6 February, I will have two projects off the load yeah.

If you are a loyal reader, you should know that tomorrow will be a day when I reward myself. Hehe.
I will buy Twilight.
(I read the second before the first weird I know) (and I havent finish the second, cant bear to)
I will treat myself sweet treats.
I will take time out for myself and have fun for the rest of the day.

I always think that my rewarding-myself method works great.

I will hold your hand,

I'm thinking any break ups that I would face in the future.

I want and hope that it will be the I-hate-you-hate-me kind of break up.

Its so tiring to be still lingering around the other half(once),
and it will be so confusing and painful for that person too,
like so, what the hell do you want now? What are u trying to put off?
Yeah maybe we will talk after a year or half, so just let the person get on with his/her life first.

The crap about 'slowly letting you go' irks me, get out of his/her life if you want to.
Quit being a ghost and mop around them. Its so irritating.

How can it be possible to be like talking happily, feeling genuinely friends when you just broke up for a week or so?
I feel so painful for people who are going through this, though some may feel that's its alright.

It certainly doesnt work for me.

All the talk and drama, disgusting. Yucks.

Celebration,

Our dearest Christopher Lim Hong Jim got into Ngee Ann's Film Sound Video course! So happy ahhhhh!
We are all damn happy seriously. I know S was really happy hahaha.
Initially chris told me he didnt get in (long story) it was a misunderstanding in the end.
SO GLAD IT WAS A MISUNDERSTANDING.

Ah! This week has been full of happening happenings. All the rush to finish up projects.
Times passes fast, great.

Until now, I still smile at the fact that chris got into the fsv course. He is damn lucky, DAMN LUCKY.
And I meant that he was damn lucky to have friends like us US!
We were all frantically helping him to prepare for the interview the day before.
Well, so glad! Phew! I hope he treasures his place at ngee ann though, not to waste his chance away again.

Love from all of us!